Posterous theme by Cory Watilo

1/2/13

After writing my intial post earlier today, a number of thoughts occured to me as to how I should manage my entries or, more accurately, how I should evaluate myself.

I came to the conclusion that as for this purpose not to be redundant or contradictory, it shouldn't take me much time or trouble to reflect upon each day and come to a meaningful conclusion.

That being said, I decided that over the next few days, I'll determine an average of how much time I spend doing obligatory things like washing dishes, showering and getting dressed. Most other things are variable.

On a daily basis, I'll chose a few things that I devoted an amount of time to and decide if they were worth the investment, or if the time could have been spent more wisely.

Finally, and perhaps most crucially, I'll make a mention of my most meaningful encounter throughout the day. This is a purpose in itself.

Without further adieu, allow me to make my first entry.

1/2/13 7:51pm

I spent a disproportionate amount of time getting nothing done today, save some reading (and perhaps the establishment of this blog). I moped around in the spirit of procrastination; that I would make better use tomorrow and each day after, and so today I could just do whatever and suffer no ill consequence.

This is fallacious thinking at best, and I am ironically aware. However, it is so terribly easy to get lazy when you catch a break--even a short one. I feel as though the entire structure of my professional self has deteriorated in a matter of two weeks (and these weeks flew!).

I spent about two hours this evening going through old emails and unsubscribing from various newsletters--those damned things that do not contribute to anything but another distraction in your inbox. I saw more than a years worth of exchanges, some were bittersweet. This was a duty that I could have done just as well to delete them all in one foul sweep.

Earlier, I stopped into my Dad's office to chat with he and Kimberlee. Any time with people you love is time well spent, which leads me to...

My Most Meaningful Encounter was...

..to have my Dad admit to me that he regrets having swept things under the rug in order to make them go away over the years. And, of course, to tell me that he is approaching a point in his life that he can just give himself to the world instead of putting up with--as he put it--bullshit. I told him that I am in a similar situation: I haven't been corrupted by a bullshit job that makes me something I'm not, and that I'm happy to be myself and help others. I told him, therefore, that I was in somewhat of a predicament as to where I'm headed next. How do I reconcile my want for simplicity and honesty in this world without compromise?

He said: "You can't. You need to find a balance."

I disagree.

Anyway, I've resolved to only spend ~15 minutes writing here, so allow me to wrap up with a quote that came up in conversation today:

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." -Dr. Seuss